doublerack
Active Member
First off I want to say that I was hesitant to post this. Not in fear of what people will think of me, but rather that I would allow some replies influence my own ethics.
Assuming most members on IW have a great respect for deer hunting and others opinions, here goes nothing...
I have this dilemma and I'm sure I'll get over it as I mature as hunter. I've been hunting for 7 years now... deer for 5 years. I've killed over 20 deer so I'm not sure why this is bothering me. The last 6 deer I have killed, 2 shotgun bucks from last season, and the 4 from this bow season have left me feeling guilty. Guilty for taking a "life" I never thought I would say that. But a couple of things really get me. 1st, watching them die. I feel like I can feel the life draining away. Last shot gun season I had to put a 2nd shot into both the bucks I shot because the 1st ones would have taken them a while to expire and I felt it neccessary to put them out of their misery. Both times, I had to turn my head after the shot. Then, this year with 2 of the does I have shot, they have only went 10 yards before they got the wobble in their legs and fell right there. Both times I felt evil. Even hours after the hunt and all night all I could see in my head was the look in their eyes right before I shot. Then just watching them fall, lay down and die. You can call me a wuss if you want, but something makes me feel bad. It's funny, when I shoot a deer and they run into the timber and expire, I don't feel this way. I have no problem walking up on a deer I know I shot, but did not watch expire nor do I have a problem with gutting or processing the deer. I'm not sure why I feel this way. Sometimes I'll be watching a hunting video at home, look over at my dogs and just think to myself why? Why do you hunt? How can you take an animals life? Also, Why do I feel the way I do when watching a deer expire? I think I feel the way I do when watching a deer expire is because I have such a respect, admiration, passion and love for nature. In this case namely, the Whitetail. So why do I hunt? God gave us free will. He knowingly put man on earth with an instinct to hunt and gather. It's my belief that that is why fish, fowl, and other game are here as well. One good serves a greater good. When introducing my nephew into hunting this last year, he had very similar feelings that I did. As I explained to him if it weren't for hunters, deer would become over populated, there would be more car v.s. deer accidents, they would inbreed, start to carry more diseases, devastate our agriculture, and eventually die of starvation (because they can no longer eat because they have no teeth) I re-learned the purpose that hunters serve. My final conclusion, is that as competitive as I am, and as passionate as I have become for hunting I have realized that I don't hunt because the game or the sport. (If that were the case, I wouldn't worry so much about taking an ethical vital shot. I would simply sling and arrow out to 70 yards or throw a slug out at 200 yards. Instead of 25year broadside shots) I hunt because of the purpose. If I harvest enough deer to fill my freezer and donate to friends or to HUSH, I have filled my purpose. In return if god blesses me with a big buck, that is fine, each harvest is a trophy regardless of size. The bottom line is that hunting allows me to enjoy the beauty god has given us.
Assuming most members on IW have a great respect for deer hunting and others opinions, here goes nothing...
I have this dilemma and I'm sure I'll get over it as I mature as hunter. I've been hunting for 7 years now... deer for 5 years. I've killed over 20 deer so I'm not sure why this is bothering me. The last 6 deer I have killed, 2 shotgun bucks from last season, and the 4 from this bow season have left me feeling guilty. Guilty for taking a "life" I never thought I would say that. But a couple of things really get me. 1st, watching them die. I feel like I can feel the life draining away. Last shot gun season I had to put a 2nd shot into both the bucks I shot because the 1st ones would have taken them a while to expire and I felt it neccessary to put them out of their misery. Both times, I had to turn my head after the shot. Then, this year with 2 of the does I have shot, they have only went 10 yards before they got the wobble in their legs and fell right there. Both times I felt evil. Even hours after the hunt and all night all I could see in my head was the look in their eyes right before I shot. Then just watching them fall, lay down and die. You can call me a wuss if you want, but something makes me feel bad. It's funny, when I shoot a deer and they run into the timber and expire, I don't feel this way. I have no problem walking up on a deer I know I shot, but did not watch expire nor do I have a problem with gutting or processing the deer. I'm not sure why I feel this way. Sometimes I'll be watching a hunting video at home, look over at my dogs and just think to myself why? Why do you hunt? How can you take an animals life? Also, Why do I feel the way I do when watching a deer expire? I think I feel the way I do when watching a deer expire is because I have such a respect, admiration, passion and love for nature. In this case namely, the Whitetail. So why do I hunt? God gave us free will. He knowingly put man on earth with an instinct to hunt and gather. It's my belief that that is why fish, fowl, and other game are here as well. One good serves a greater good. When introducing my nephew into hunting this last year, he had very similar feelings that I did. As I explained to him if it weren't for hunters, deer would become over populated, there would be more car v.s. deer accidents, they would inbreed, start to carry more diseases, devastate our agriculture, and eventually die of starvation (because they can no longer eat because they have no teeth) I re-learned the purpose that hunters serve. My final conclusion, is that as competitive as I am, and as passionate as I have become for hunting I have realized that I don't hunt because the game or the sport. (If that were the case, I wouldn't worry so much about taking an ethical vital shot. I would simply sling and arrow out to 70 yards or throw a slug out at 200 yards. Instead of 25year broadside shots) I hunt because of the purpose. If I harvest enough deer to fill my freezer and donate to friends or to HUSH, I have filled my purpose. In return if god blesses me with a big buck, that is fine, each harvest is a trophy regardless of size. The bottom line is that hunting allows me to enjoy the beauty god has given us.